And I've been going a new Physical Therapy lately. With the super long-term goal of qualifying for Boston, running a sub - 6 hour marathon, I've been going to the sports performance center at New York University. For years I did my physical therapy at Rusk and they got me from Quadrophenia to being able to walk 33 miles in a day. but the Sports Performance Center is going to get me to run again. I'm using an alter-g machine and I'm being treated like an athlete. This summer I'm going to get ankle-foot Orthotics they're going to keep me from tripping over my own toes when I run.
Most of the time Physical Therapy goals are short-term or at least have a date. My therapist understands my goal of a 5:59 Marathon is as of yet Beyond the Horizon. but that's what I'm trading for.
I have been training at sub marathon pace on an alter-g treadmill at 60% of body weight. And then on my own I've been running on the track at the Park Slope Armory at a slower pace about to a half a mile at a time. Running.
On Saturday I join my friend Larry for the weekly Achilles workout in Central Park. we usually walk a couple of Loops of the reservoir. we got there early and walked one before everyone else got there but then I told him I wanted to run. Run. Running. Because I'm going to run New York this fall. When I did it two years ago it was a run walk and then mostly a walk. then when I did the Brooklyn marathon I just walked. And when I walked around Manhattan I walked. But this fall I'm going to run the New York City marathon. I won't break 6 hours but it will be training for the marathon where I will break 6 hours
4 years ago when I was still using crutches to walk around the neighborhood I ran a 1 mile race on a track. That didn't kill me. So why shouldn't I be able to run on a 1.6 mile Loop today Honestly oh, I was a little worried because I was just about to attempt to run three times further than I had run within the past 4 years. Whatever. I could have stopped and walked if I had to. But I didn't. I ran. and when I finished I honestly felt better then when I finished the three marathons I finished since GBS. Because I ran
Then Larry said he wanted to run some more miles. But he walked me down to where everyone was hanging out. I needed to catch my breath. the bench where I wanted to set was covered with everyone's coats. all the people I knew we're talking to people so I didn't want to interrupt anyone to just qwell about my recent accomplishment so I hung out. I was using my hat to wipe the sweat off my face when the volunteer standing next to me notice that. she was shivering, after all it was 40°. she looked at me and smiled and said that she was cold. I look back and said,” yeah, I'm overheating now because I just ran.”
Then something a little crazy happened. I don't know if it was an anxiety attack or some sort of epiphany. I said those two words out loud. I ran. I had to tell people I know. But the people I knew were busy. So I went to the other side of Engineers gate and took out my phone. it looks a little crazy. But I was a little crazy.
Okay, I got a back up a little. I recently participated in a sleep study. Yeah, I also have sleep apnea. I spent the night in a hospital covered with all sorts of sensors and then the second half of the night they put a mask over my face to see how my breathing got better. In the morning the technician said I “tolerated the test very well”. I told him that I had spent a week in intensive care and then 135 days in the hospital. This test was easy because I knew I was going home in the morning. Nothing can hurt me. Nothing bothers me. I think I kind of scared him a little but he told me it was a very good attitude to have.
Yeah, I got really sick. I got better. I fell down. I got up. Nothing bothered me I'm really not afraid of anything
Until I made this crazy Facebook video I was afraid of one thing. I was afraid that if I started crying I would never stop. I feel much better now. I'm not afraid anymore that crying can become a permanent condition.